BiTChyPriNceSs3

I forgot about this.

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 18:59:30 GMT

I cant remember the last time i wrote. I couldent even remember my password.

Im dying, im dying pleaseee i want to i need to be under your skin

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 18:27:10 GMT

I hate thAT feeling like your drowning and NO MAtter how loud you yell for help,no one turns to look or even stops to notcice something isent right.

Incubus

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 17:46:41 GMT

count your blessings

Seduce a stranger

Dont ever let life pass you by

SOmetimes i feel like i know strangers beter then i know my friends...

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 17:29:31 GMT

Sometimes I feel I know strangers
Better than I know my friends
Why must a beginning
Be the means to an end

The stones from my enemies
These wounds will mend
But I cannot survive
The roses from my friends

When the last word has been spoken
And we’ve beared witness to the final setting sun
All that shall remain is a token
Of what we’ve said and done

When all we’ve had has been forsaken
Distant church bells no longer ring
That’s the sound of a heart taken
And the story of tears from a king

Im in love...and its going to last<3

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 00:48:48 GMT

I have been sleeping at stephens teh last couple of days. His parents were in mexico. Today we woke up and talked about kids names and he told me how beautiful i was. Im really happy. ITs almost a year.
-Tabby

In which he pretends he dosent care about her...

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 17:03:52 GMT

Stephen called me the night after are little departure and told me we couldent break up beause we are meant to be and its obvious. I was so happy my jaw hurt from smiling. I slept at his house that night and i cryed as we had a huge talk about everything that has happened over the year. ALot of our group have tumbled down a dark hole and we reministed aboout the parties we use to have. Im glad were not done, i cant imagine myself with anyone else.
-Tabby_

The worse mistake of my life....

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 04:41:27 GMT

I broke up with stephen tonight. I dont no exactly why...I did. Something happened and i forgot who i was or maybe its me and thats what happened. Im not good in staying in relationships for long. I get scared and run and thats what i did. He had no facial exspression when i did it. But it was done.....I looked at him and that was it...10 months ended in the matter of 5 minutes probably less. I just broke up with someone that i couldent have loved more...and i dont know why. My heart feels like its being pulled apart but its myself i have to blame. I feel really alone, mainly because its him i go to when i feel like this. I feel undone, incomplete and like i just made the worse mistake of my life.

ANd then thEre WaS noThiNg....

Last nite was fun because we did nothing<3

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 15:07:31 GMT

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I’m just a poor boy,i need no sympathy-
Because I’m easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn’t really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he’s dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I’ve gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn’t mean to make you cry-
If I’m not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body’s aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-i’ve got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don’t want to die,
I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all-

Thank god....

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 22:27:44 GMT

It feels good to be home back to my sheltered life. This weekend was way to scary.

please sweet lips give me my sin again....

Sat, 28 May 2005 13:29:41 GMT

Last night was interesting. I met nick and lee from this band.I remember nick having some nice ink on his arm, oddly he goes to a tattoo place right near here. I met This cool guy named tim, who i toook entireley to many shots of Jack Daniels with. Eveyone kept telling me that they had never met a girl who like whiskey, but i do:) Amber invited me to the wedding. Mike Came over!! i havent seen him in so long. Me and bob sang to Mulin Rouge realllly loud. Brandon has hikkies all over his neck from a girl who is older than me. Chris was the only sobebr one and made sure everyone got home safe, hes the best. I stumbled in and stephen is all pissed at me. Whatever, i dont regret anything from last nite. There partyign again today, bob said it would be ok if i came. To tell you the truth i dont care if stephen gets mad at me, last nite i realized being around people that arent so serious helps you just relax and not be so sad. Im actually really happy today and i had a great time last nite.
_Tabby-

You fucking fashion trends are bad kids piss me off...pay attention to you

Mon, 23 May 2005 16:13:38 GMT

Sometimes i think people try so hard to be differnt they wind up the same. I get there are trends and emo and punk and all thease groups but when you try so hard not to fall into them you end up being the same. you end up not being you, you stay away from things you are actually intrested in because they are in and you want to be differnt. But who cares if you like it. Dosent it make you differnt or stronger by not caring. By the way..I have tattoos,bellybutton ring,my toung is pirced,my lip soon will be....Guess what call me a sell out...but im not afraid to be who i am and i would never lie or try to cover it up...I just dont give a fuck. So how about you try it you over hyper ass hole take a fucking valum and drink it down with vodka and go back to dancing on fucking clouds.....
-Tabby-

FUck shit right in the ass

Mon, 16 May 2005 22:52:41 GMT

1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: no
(4) Want to be?: no i dont think so
(5) Your birth day: Feb 5, 1990
(6) Age you act: older i think
(7) Age you wish you were: 13
(8) Your height: 5'5
(9) The color of your eyes: blue and yellow
(10) Happy with it?: yea
(11) The color of your hair: brown with some blonde
(12) Happy with it?: i want it darker
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: mom,and brandon
(27) Your family: mom, bub,jessy,kiki,john,Robert, WIlliam, Sean and Chris
(29) What's your job: FLower place
(30) Piercings?: tounge,belly button,cartlidge,3 in one ear, 2 in the other
(31) Tattoos?: two
(32) Obsessions?: groundhogs,slash and jack'daniels
(35) Do you speak another language? latin
(36) Have a favorite quote?: A pair of star crossed lovers take their lives(something like that)
(37) Do you have a webpage?: no

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it

(38) Do you live in the moment?: most of the time
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: to a point
(40) Do you have any secrets?: yep
(41) Do you hate yourself?: yea
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: no
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: drinking to much,thinking about the past
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: Your lips are huge!! and i like your eyes
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: A story about a girl
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Dying alone
(47) Can you sing: nope
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
(49) Are you a loner?: no
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: im alittle crazy...
(52) Are you a daredevil?: alittle but
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: drinking to much
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: Yes
(55) Have you got a ?: no
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?strength>I can overcome anything Weakness>the littlest thing can send me into depression
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: My tendency to fall for dicks...
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: creativity
(59) How do you vent?: drink
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: sometimes
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: not seeing asheley anough
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: yea
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: People arent around forever
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: lips or eyes
(65) And least?: My breast (there really big)
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: i dont think im ugly
(67) Are you confident?: In some things
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Stich from lilo and stich
69) Do people know how you feel?: no
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: yea

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: sometimes
(72) Do drugs?: sometimes
(73) Read the newspaper?: no
(74) Pray?: no
(75) Go to church? no
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: they dont
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: sometimes
(78) Take walks in the rain?: yea
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: yea
(80) Drive?: no
(81) Like to drive fast?: yea

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: no
(83) Hurt yourself?: by accident
(84) Been out of the country?: no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
(86) Burped?: yes
(87) Been unfaithful?: not sure
(88) Been in love?: love sucks i dont love anybody
(89) Done drugs?: ha yea
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: yep
(92) Had a surgery?: no
(93) Ran away from home?: no
(94) Played strip poker: no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: yea
(97) Been picked on?: yea
(98) Been on stage?: yea
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: I have been pretty damn drunk
(100) Slept outdoors?: yes
(101) Thought about suicide?: maybe for a minute or two
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yea
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 4 days on aderal
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yea
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yea
(107) Slept all day?: no
(108) Killed someone?: maybe
(109) Made out with a stranger?: yea, sadly
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: possibly
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: yea
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yea
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yea
(114) Been betrayed?: many times
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yea
(116) Broken the law?: yea
(117) Met a famous person?: yea
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes
(146) Stolen anything?: nope
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: no
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yea
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: yea
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: n0
(152) Bungee jumped?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yea

CLOTHES and other fashion

(154) Shoe brand?: skateshoes or flip flops
(155) Brand of clothing?: nothign special
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Dream
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: school uniform/jeans work shirt
(159) Wear hats?: beanies ocasionally
(161) Wear make-up?: alittle
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Probably on southstreet
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: undergarments
(164) Are you trendy?: alittle
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: no

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: yea
(167) Miracles?: yea
(168) Astrology?: yea
(169) Magic?: yea
(170) God?: yes it hink
(171) Satan?: yea
(172) Santa?: no:(
(173) Ghosts?: yea
(174) Luck?: no
(175) Love at first sight?: yea
(176) Yin and Yang?: yea
(177) Witches?: yea
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: no
(181) Do you wish on stars?: yea

LOVE, and all that

(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?:yea
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yea
(184) Still love him/her?: sometimes
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: sometimes
(186) What do you find romantic?: laying in the dark
(187) Turn-on?: kissing slowly
(188) Turn-off?: no forplay
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: no
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: liike a bitch
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: blind>theres less to fuck up if your not friends first
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: no
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: no
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: maybe
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: eyes
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: any body hair
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? a ingraved flask full of jack daniels
(208) Are you in love?: yea dame it
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: very much so
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: walk by

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

(211) That haunted you?: ashley
(212) You wanted to kill?: Stephen
(213) That you laughed at?: bubby
(214) That laughed at you?:bryan
(215) That turned you on?: myself
(216) You went shopping with?: i dunno
(217) That broke your heart?: Bob
(218) To disappoint you?: Bob
(219) To ask you out?: Stephen
(220) To make you cry?: Stpehen
(221) To brighten up your day?: Danielle or Natalie
(222) That you thought about?: pronbably asheley
(223) You saw a movie with?: chris
(224) You talked to on the phone?: bryan
(225) You talked to through IM?: NAt
(226) You saw?: mom
(227) You lost?: Ashley
(229) You thought was completely insane?: myself
(230) You wanted to be?: a rockstar
(231) You told off?: Bubby
(232) You trusted?: Myself
(233) You turned down?: .......I dont no

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU

(234) Smiled?: really smiled....i dont remember
(235) Laughed?: i dunno
(236) Cried?: today
(237) Bought something?: yesterdya
(238) Danced?: awhile
(239) Were sarcastic?: i dunno
(240) hugged someone?: today
(241) Talked to an ex?: today
(242) Watched your fave movie?: today
(243) Had a nightmare?: when ahsley died
(245) Talked on the phone?: i dunno
(246) Listened to the radio?: way to school
(247) Watched TV?: last nite
(248) Went out?: today
(249) Helped someone?: i dunno
(250) Were mean?: today
(251) Sang?: no idea
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: no idea
(253) Said "I love you"?: saturday
(254) Missed someone?: now
(255) Fought with a family member?: few minutes ago
(256) Fought with a friend?: saturday
(257) Had a serious conversation?:sunday
(258) Got drunk?: sadturday
(259) Had sex?: while ago

Beeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr

Sun, 08 May 2005 01:40:05 GMT

getting mangeled with chris.......old times......
Stephen got mad at me........im sad

-tabby

Ugh hangg over.......

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 13:55:02 GMT

Bobby told Danielle he wanted to marry her. Stephen said we are meant to be. Last nite was one of the most sereal nights of my life. Everyone has never been so together. I wish you were here, i miss you ash...
-Flip-

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange
a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

Cinderella, they are sluts like you

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 06:28:18 GMT

TOnight was prom and it was amazing.... the dance itself sucked but me and stephen danced to this song that made me fall even more in love with him then i already am..Anyone that gets to feel this kind of love even if it is just temporary are more more lucky then they can imagine, i love being in love with you, it makes the storm seem like sunshine...
-Flip_

What the fuck???

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 01:24:09 GMT

TOday has kinda sucked...School felt slow and work was hard and reallly annoying...I have no idea what kind of mood I am in. I reallly just feel like what the fuck. I dunno its kinda a hard feeling to explain....whatever.
_flip-

Smoke

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 16:23:26 GMT

HAPPY 4:20 everyone!!!! Smoke up and eat alot. By the way I love my life and Stephen alot and im so glad id dient fall for anything fake and obviously not as meaningful as they made it sound.....I love everyone be happy!!!!
x0xo0xo0xo0xo
-Tabby-

Stars...........

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 16:26:21 GMT

So I went out to breakfast today with my mom, stephens dad and his little brother. Its kinda funny that are parents are friends. The whole time i felt uneasy. I went to the bathroom and must of puked a buket of barf. Not to be to graphic ha ha. Anyway i have felt like crap for like 4 days. School starts back up on monday and im actually getting depressed thinking i will have to go back to that academy of lies. I hate that place more then anything. Its like wakeing up and going to hell trying to be heaven. I feel so sick and really cold. the stars were amazing last night. Look at the stars look how they shine for you and all that you dooo

_Flip-

bye bye beautiful dont bother to write

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 16:31:36 GMT

SO much has happened, yet im still here, right where i have been. Ashley died. My mind has not gotten around the idea that i will never be around her again. Its worst to know i was just with her i was just at her party laughing and having fun and now shes dead. I have been going threw so many thoughts and emotions. Everything is really in side myself. I think tomorow will be better.
x0xox0
_flip-
p.s the boys have started calling me flip...

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 07:51:30 GMT

TOnight sucked
last nite sucked
this was probably the worst weekend of my life
Im so fucking sad and on top of everything im pissed off.
Im right back were i started and im fearing this circle will never stop spinning. God im so fucking pissed
-Tabby-

Look what I'Ve done........

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 02:52:10 GMT

Im such a fucking idiot. I trust way to easily......Im such a retard. Im s0o fucking pissed its taking everything in me not to kill that mother fucker. I cant bealieve i have managed to fuck my self over again. I hate school, lacorss is a fucking boot camp, evertything fucking sucks. By the way i spent the night in the hospital, i was checking in one of my best friends into rehab. Oh and my dad might get locked up for 2 years if convicted. I need a fucking break from all this bull shit!!!!!
I cant stand being in my skin.
-Tabitha_
Take my photo of the wall if it just wont sing for you
cause everything else has gone away and there nothing
left there for you to do
Oh look what youve done
youve made a fool of everyone
It seems like such fun
until you loose what you have won.

And the cirlce stops

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 17:40:23 GMT

I left school. I felt so fucking sick and was really bored..
The last couple of days have been crazy. There so much that i have in myself figured out. Im really happy and met some really cool people at a party i went to on saturday. I also got to see ashley and got reminded about how much i love being around her. I think life is like a cirlce for the most part anyway its youself that must discover when to change shapes....
-Tabby-

"And when you die"

I tell you to rest your eyes now,

Do not cry at broken hearts or unlived dreams,

Do not curse the stars that dident grant your wishes,

Do not worry the sun will be shinning when you awake,

The earth with still move,

We shall all still be here,

And when you die,

It will all be but a dream,

So rest your eyes tonight,

For who knows how many more we shall have.....

FUCK EVERYTHING

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 04:02:07 GMT

Sometimes it gets so fucking hard
I Feel like letting it all go...

life, what do you want me to say?

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 01:35:40 GMT

School seemed so slow and boring today. I missed stephen alot today to, its weired i see him almost everyday but i miss him in school. HE dosent miss school at all, if i was smart anough to teach myself i would. Today i started lacross. It was a pretty hard practice, but good. Stephen was talking to Ducan when i got out of practice and i went up and hugged him, he can feel me missing him i swear. We came back here and i found out that my brother John was coming home for the weekend. He lives in boston hes like this big buisness man so i was so surprised he was coming home. When he got here he hugged me really tightly and i remember how good it feels to have a big brother around. He says he likes stephen, which makes me happy. I fell asleep watching a movie with bry bry and stephen, its their dads birthday today, so they went out to dinner. He kissed me and whispered that he loved me. I'm so lucky to be so in love, some people go threw their whole lives and never fall in love.
Im going to go to bed really early, no later then 9:00. Practice is hard and i can tell i need rest, ill get up alittle early to finish homework.

Wrap me in your voice and whisper sweet nothings

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 20:21:02 GMT

Life is good.....I feel like every weekend all of us become more and more like a family. On friday chris,bub,thomas,bry bry, stephena nd me went to the used it was a pretty good show then bub and stephen slept over. Last nite chris,jon,bryan,nat, stephen, bubby and me all hung out and crashed here. We all woke up and ate pancakes and drank coffee and smoked ciggerets. I dunno why im so happy things just feel right and i think im finally seeing what its like to be really loved by someone.
xxo0xox-
_Tabby-